This & That with Myself

I remember the wind in Lawrence, it is always circulating. I liked to stop on my way to class and watched the leaf floating in the air…spining in counterclockwise direction. The wind is like tiny tordano, try to suck up the leaf, the sand, the trash…and you can always hear the wind blow as far as I remember. It is very spectacular but confuse, everything that float with the wind will never know where they are going to land.

San Francisco has a lot more windy days than Lawrence. But the wind always blow straight from the pacific ocean or to the pacific ocean. The wind will sometimes find themself trap in a valley and work extremely hard to blow up through the hills. It somehow reminds me of Chicago, but the wind is more gentle and chilly. Especially walking on the street at night, you feel the wind is blowing out from your body, from the inside out and stay very quiet.

The wind in Malaysia? I can’t really describe it because I have never observe when I was there. I just remember I love wind because it is so hot. I love wind still, as long as I remember my scarf, my hat and my glove.

I really think the windy weather doesn’t fit the personality of San Francisco, but that’s fine, the Earth just passed her birthday, I don’t want to argue

我最討厭起風的日子,因為我人長得太沒有’地心引力感’, 所以往往在這樣的天氣下,寸步難行. 索性就呆在家裡,渾渾噩噩,又一天了…

今天是開台的第一天, 天氣不好,心情也不好. 在這樣的情況下正是開台的好時機!因為總算能作些令人鼓舞的事!雖然還有很多正經事要辦,但當一個人情緒起來,誰管它正經不正經.就暫且把那些temporary的無味事擱在一旁吧!

算一算,我已經很久沒有為自己,或是為別人寫些什麼了.我甚至好久,好久…都沒寫中文. 來了美國之後,又經歷了一個轉折點,很多事,很多人,都不一樣了.有些人一步步走下來,看到的是意料中的自己.而我則是’一步一驚喜’的走來.相信把生活中的一些事,一些改變記錄下來會相當有趣吧. 因為每個人都活得不一樣,每一個個體都是一個精彩.

精彩的開始未必在於由你開始, 但要開始一段精彩則不得不自己來了所以…’kuang~~~~’(用力敲一下鑼)我開台了喲! 歡迎歡迎 ^____^

2003-04-07 04:25:41

After reading my old blogs, I feel….really funny Now I know why people keep diary, anything happen to you right now can be a good laugh later in life. Of course, it really depends. But it is a way to review and to appreciate your life.

It has been 3 years since the first time I started writing blogs. Not too long, not too short. If you measure these three years in term of days and hours, it is really not that bad, But if you measure it with personal growth and experiences, gosh, there were so much going on in 3 years!

Oh well, this is my life, and I live in my obssesion of being a short Asian chick! All the men out there, I am sorry, it is just too fun to be a girl, a woman. And you will never know unless….. you know what I mean.

i should have gone to see both David Gilmour shows in Oakland. No doubt, I am having the best night ever! I really can’t believe I will have this privilege to see half of the Pink Floyd members. Eventhough i was probably the only person watching the show alone, i did have a freaking good time!!

i am so so glad that the keyboard is played by Richard Wright, and he sangs many songs tonight as well. Echoes, oh my god,  I can’t believe they played this song with the most spectacular light effect. When I almost burst into tears during the show, they played Arnold  Layne!! Ah, they can totally read my mind huh? it was such a fun song and Richard Wright did a great great job in singing…of course, it made me think of Syd Barret.

So they started out with Speak To Me/Breathe/Time/Breathe Reprise. And then back to the tracks in On The Island..I really like Smile and Take A Breath, it is just so my type, haha. In between tracks from the new album, David played Dominoes with acoustic guitar. David Gilmour also played the sax and banjo! What a surprise! But it was funny to see him carried the sax as if it were guitar

The second half of the show…Shine On You Like Crazy Diamond! I was thrill when I heard it, it is definitely one of my favorite of all time! (of course, there are many more ) And then it was Mr Wright showtime-Wearing the inside out. The floydian next to me kindly lended the binocular to me, so I could see how Richard Wright beautifully played the keyboard and how amazing when David Gilmour playing the guitar! Even the mistakes he made are still AWESOME! His  hand and figure movement are so unique, I swear I never see anybody play like that and stand like that.

Here comes the surprise, FAT OLD SUN! GOSH, it was very nicely done especially the ending. And the single yellow laser light from the stage was floating around the theater, it was so beautiful and this song ended with one of the highlight tonight, the laser light show was just magnificent!

Then, then then…Coming Back To Life! My favorite favorite song! (ok, equally favorite with many more) It was so moving and I enjoyed it much better than the CD. David’s voice sounds even smoother in live, very bright and very very powerful. When I almost can feel my tears in my eyes, here comes Arnold Layne, sung by Mr Wright! Very nice!

Finally, the last song..Echoes! I am wordless, I can’t think of any word to describe how great it was presented on stage. It totally took my breath away! And … of course nobody want to leave right after this song. The all time favorite Wish You Were Here and Comfortably Numb were the encores. Everyone in the theater sang together, and the green laser light! Gosh, it was the same one as they used in Wembley! I am definitely the happiest person!!

OK, now i am back home and my eyes are tired, probably because of all the laser lights?! but even i am going to be blind is worth the experience! I can’t wait for another tour…whoever, whenever, as long as i can make it, i won’t miss it!!

"Pink Floyd reunited. Pigs Have Flown." i hope that day will come again!!

Some thoughts about relationship.

A lot of people will ask if I am in a relationship? And I always responded, "Which one are you talking about?" There are many kinds of relationship first of all, and most of the relationships I have are equally important to me. That’s why, I am a little weird. I am just so focus on so many things even myself can’t get it. But that’s fine, if I just can’t get it, f*ck it.

Relationship is a great word; and it is sad that most of the time people assume relationship equal to only love and sexual involvement. It is sickening. If we live in a progressive society, we should be more open about the meaning of a word. And there should be more important things in life than ever before.

Relationship is progressive, it changes, maybe one relationship is your priority for right now, but later, it will switch. Everything in our life take turn, and for me, it is totally OK. Relationship is the way in which two things or two persons are connected; there are so many people around us and we are creating new relationship everyday. Connection between two person or two things doesn’t necessary involve love, it can be so many things- interest, enlightenment, inspiration and etc. Some people might be more important today, and some might not. It is a way of communication. Relationship means to help us go through our day with happiness and relief. The reason why so many people are stuck in a so called "not-working out relationship" is because they deny the flexibility of it and trapped and they say things like, "You are the most important person for me!" OK, calm down.

I think I come to the point to accept that life can’t be the way I always wanted to be. I respect my life, I respect it is unpredictable. I accept it. And think about it, if my life is well planned, good lord, I would bored to death by now.

I have never thought of owning a company in such an early age of my life. Yeah right, people gonna laugh at me if I said … "Hi, I am the Director of…." Anyway, still adjusting. So, I guess it will be better to say " Hi, I am a start agent!"

For the first time of my life I am making a decision for myself. It is so much harder than anything else. Thanks to the cold and flu that make me feel so miserable about my life and I finally take a first step. I am not a risk taking person, this time I am taking a huge risk; just like people who don’t sick very often, once they get sick, it is gonna be a big deal.

So I think AStartAgent, INC is a good name; it truly represent myself anf my vision. Well, I just have to get used to my new life I think.