This & That with Myself

Friday, I went down to San Jose after a long day packing, I was trying to stay awake on the caltrain so I could enjoy the view, but as usual, I fell asleep That night we had Crazy Buffet with some friends in San Jose, I was very glad to see them again, cool and clever people

I went to the Grand Prix on Saturday with my buddy, he got a VIP tickets and we had great good, free alcohol, and close up to the race track! My friend got so exciting to meet his Idol who is only 19 but great in drifting. Imagine 10 years later, how great can this driver be?

At night I had a friend came over at my place and we did some videos. It was so weird that I didn’t make any mistake playing the guitar! A great time with a good friend who had so many similarities with me! (We are both from the earth, gosh!) Ha, it is a good thing isn’t it?

So  I went to Tham Long today and have some Roast Giant Crab wth gralic noodle! It was my friend’s farewell, and kind of my farewell We had a wonderful dinner with 2 bottles of great white wine! I still couldn’t believe I was pick up by a brand new Volvo…ah, I love that VIP kind of feeling

Then we went to Ocean Beach and Palace of Fine Art at night. It looked so gorgesous and quiet, very different feeling from the day time! I felt so relieve over there, like, I can feel my body was getting really light and felt like to fly! Of course, it was probably because of the alcohol, and such a good time with all these great friends!

After we got home, we watched the DVD my friend had been working on for a loooong time. It was so awesome I almost cried while watching it. So much work have been done by this great couple, I am very very thankful and touch!

Here am I, having a glass of Muscat from V.Sattui, Napa Valley, watching the DVD from my friend, having a good time relaxing by myself. So San Francisco, so present, so me…

Am I gonna lose all these special feelings? I don’t know, but it is good to move on and heading to my unforseen future. I am going home, and it is almost like a new environment for me, so strange and mysterious. Compare to SF, I am so familiar with it, so predictable and comfortable. I am sort of worried cause I am very used to be by myself, what’s the life gonna be when all these social pressure and relative pressure around you?!

Alright, my beloved San Francisco friends, I am not leaving for vacation as you know, but I will miss you all through my life! Such a good time, so unforgettable, extremely excited and wonderful experiences. I will miss all these, but the show must go on, the show for the next chapter of my life

As I was cleaning up and packing, I read through every single card that I have, it must be 100 of them….I am very thankful for all the people who care so much about me, I really love you guys!! But I can only keep the cards that mean more than others because of the 50 pounds rule I keep the cards from people that I will definately see again in the future! Special thanks to the following friends who had given me a hot warm special card: (not in order)

Imam, Mickey, Atsuko, May, Joyce, Miyuki, Mai, Leny, Laetitia, Aurore, I-Shiang, Sue, Eugune, David, Matt, Sarah, Sam, Micheal, Bercy, Ryotaro, Daisuke, Masami, Wendy, PSYC LAB people, SOSAD Group, Fred, Veria, Vennier, Lao Ba, HuiShan, KeXin, HuiZhen, Sinni, Jie Lin, ShuYu, SeeChoy, MunCheong, my inti roommates, lloyd, Alex, Alex2, AG, YokeWee,Matt, Michelle, Preston, SiewFuon, YB,my family, xiao jia, huizhen possible etc

离开的第四天

即将离开的四天后

没有什么感想

我不知道该如何分析现在的心情

我想，babelfish 也做不了很好的翻译

很奇怪，好久不见的感觉

很多不可能的话，不可能说出口

有了教训之后，我不再自以为是的把心里的话说给不应该听到的人

唉，学了好多的教训

下次我搭电车，我会先把票拿好

然后，我会会心一笑

那些美丽的教训和回忆。

I have been sick since Tuesday, I am not sure if I am ill or it is just allergy. I guess the fresh air in Muir Wood helps a little, but I am getting tired of coughing in the middle of the night.

This morning I just cough at the right time, haha, so I can get up early and start working on a lot of things! Today is going to my detox day, I have to work hard cleaning up my room and the bacteria in my body! I don’t want to be sick before I leave! Ahhhh…

Today I wore the weirdest outfit to hike, because I though I was just going to have a nice dinner and walk around the city then go home to pack. But my friend called me up and said her appointment cancelled on her and she already got her zipcar. So, we just decided to go to Muir Wood, how spontaneous

Muir Wood has the tallest tree on earth! It was pretty amazing to see all these redwood trees, standing at the same spot for thousands of year. Imagine an immortal human, living at the same place like these trees, fighting with others for sunlights and water. Ah, I have no idea why was I thinking about it while hiking, immortal…

I will never want to be immortal, I think human have a pretty good length of life. When you are actually living your life every moment that you are concious, life is long enough. And it is long enough because you are living at this moment, appreciate it and enjoy it! I was aware that wearing this very lady like pair of shoes was a hassle to hike, but I did it, now this pair of shoes is covered in dust, mudd and pride, because not every pair of cute shoes will have the privillage to hike, and I do believe my shoes enjoyed every moment stepping on sands and mudd.

Maybe, I should take all my shoes for an adventure, go to the place they have never been, walk on the beach, climb the rock, run on a desert…oh boy, I am glad I don’t have any high heels

I sent a very special friend to SFO today! For the first time in my life I actually feel very happy to send someone away because there’s a brand new exciting chapter waiting ahead! How cool! After weeks of packing and frustration, my friend finally make it to leave the US and go to Asia for the very first time. I am praying from my heart that everything will go smoothly for them. It was a great experience for me to pack a 9 years era into 2 suitcases. The funniest thing happen last night was when I told my friend that United Airline only allow 50 pounds per baggage, this crazy New Yorker was like " I know English is your second language, but you gotta talk fast, what does it means? 50 punds? WHAT?? " Gosh, my poor friend was super stress out and I was speechless. 50 pounds is 50 pounds, how can I explain that? It was so funny! I guess I really have to move to New York afterall, so that I know how to talk and walk like a New Yorker

Of course, what I got from helping out was a piece of golden advice which I shall always remember. My friend said I seem too nice sometimes people can easily taking advantage of me, that’s true, I will even offer someone to take advantange of me sometimes, but I think I am learning, to love and to protect myself from all these selfish people. I am glad that I have pretty good luck in search of good friends no matter where I go though.

Being cautious and nice are so hard to co-exist, but I am working on it, and I shall never let anybody to make my life miserable!

Now I have to start working on my own life. After this long chilling vacation, I finally ready to do some work! But, as usual, I am home tipsy after a pitcher of Sangria today, nothing can be done tonight I guess. But I think I accomplished a lot today. I went to SFO and then went to holiday inn to take a nap, tried to swim and good dinner! It’s cool, calm down, I have another week, I just have to plan wisely.

My friend in Malaysia had my schedule ready, and I just told him over the phone the other day like " NO NO!! Stopl I am going to Thailand, please leave me alone!" It is hard to imagine how I used to be, comparing the "old me" who cant’ live without a watch, always stress out with my tight schedule to a very relax, spontenous, and lazy me now.

I think having a healthy, fun, enjoyable life is so important than anything else right now. Of course being responsible to oneself in essential, I am really glad that my parents raise me well

I think the international airlines are going crazy! The maximum weight for the checked baggage is 50 punds/23 kg per piece for economic class, 70 pounds per piece for business class. Insane, that’s discrimination right there! People who can afford business class DON"T bring a lot of stuff while travelling, they can simply buy whatever they want. And those bastards are usually on a business trip, they don’t need to bring shit! We already pay for the crappy seats in economy class, what else do the airlines want from us??!!

I helped my friend packed last night, good rehersal for me, now that I can only pack 50 pounds per baggage, it is going to be tough. I really hope things will go smoothly for him because it is his virgin trip to Asia. Airport is the worst place on earth now I think, the line, the security, the custom, the heavy baggages…I can’t believe I have been through all these so many times, all the airport memories that I had are going to haunt me forever! But, each time I fly, I learn new tricks and get better! Better way to pack, better sleeping position, better way to enjoy the food, better knowledge of how to entertain myself on the long flight, etc…

Anyhow, I am going to do this again soon, at least, I am pretty sure I won’t be stress out like my very first fly.

I just read my friend’s blog about feeling kind of Russian? After a couple shots of vodka…that make me smile for some reasons! Good.

Let’s count how many time I smile today…

1st - Got a phone call from my buddy, she invited me to stay at the hotel for a night because her sister’s family gotta check out earlier! BRAVO! I am going to swim all day long and stay in the air-conditioned hotel room!

2nd - Playing Baldur’s Gate Dark Alliance on PS2 and my character was running around and fighting without any armor! He is a freaking naked Dwarf with only a mace!

3rd - Seeing my buddy in Italy through the webcam.

The weather is seriously driving me crazy! I laugh a lot usually in a day, but today I didn’t get anything done or go anywhere, the heat is making me really drownsy and lazy! But I need to calm down, think about those people who suffer and die because of the heat wave. I am so blessed that I am young and healthy.

I also reply a friend email today which was quite upsetting. I replied the email, for me, in a pretty cruel manner. But the thing is, when something doesn’t go right, you have to correct it right away. If it is already wrong, you just have to stop it and prevent it.

I don’t like to regret for what I have done, because those past actions are what make me a better person today. For those people who still want to live in the past, I am sorry, I can’t never be part of it and I have to move on. I am absolutely terrified by this idea!

I,  smile for a better decision in the future.

I had the best bloody mary tonight! Awesome!! Had a good time tonight and for the past 2 days. I am so from the present; I am enjoying every moment in my life  now! I am very blessed to meet people that giving me different inspiration and thoughts of life. Everything is really good at this moment, but the muni is still as suck as usual…I waited 40 mins for the stupid muni and it broke down half way…

Muni, I hate you so much I have no more curse word for you!

OMG, I didn’t hang out with my friends for so long, since last weekend!!! I think I will go crazy pretty soon. I am home from 12pm to 5pm today, gosh, I felt like I am home forever! I seriously have problem watching TV, too much TV make me depress, that’s why I never watch any soap opera, is like I am allergic to it Many of my close friends are having difficulty in their life these days. Seems like I am the only one relax and happy but now I am sad

Anyway, I went to SF Brewing Co. with my friend today, it was a very interesting place with great local beer. It is so hot today I feel like I am going to die! A light beer really cold me down. And we were talking about many things, acting, performing, jobs…bla bla bla. Then we realized something really spooky, our parents were born at the same year and same month, we both have 3 sibllings at home and all of their ages were close to each other, we are both pisces and our birthday is 2 days apart.

Well, I just find that interesting