This & That with Myself

Haven’t eat steak for a while, the other day I went to one of the best steak house around for dinner. The restaurant name is call “王品-台塑牛排”, from Taiwan. The meaning of “王品” is “王永庆品尝过的牛排”, so Mr Wang is a rich dude for sure. Rumors said he has been trying to get the copy right of the name of this restaurant, if the restaurant is not doing well, I think he won’t even bother.

My friend wanted to show me the best customer service you can get around town, so far I don’t really have any complain about the customer service here, but I am interested checking out “the best”. The restaurant is uniquely designed with lots of fabric and roses. Fresh red roses. It was absolutely the most romantic place I ever been, walking on the dark red carpet with silk curtains warping around the column and on the wall and roses.

Of course, we had our first, second, main course and dessert, drink, wine. Each course was decorated artistically, with dry ice and roses. Roses, roses, red roses, the flower that I hate the most was on every single plate that served. My friend peeled out the roses and put it on the table as an ash tray; the dark red wine on the left hand side, and some left over dessert. A mixture of alcohol, cigaratte and sweetness in the air.

I didn’t ask how much does it cost for the meal that night, cause I couldn’t stop thinking about roses. Fresh roses. A flower that is lucky enough to be a symbol for romance and love, a flower that is unlucky enough to be wasted and killed in different way. Now I understand the reason why roses represent love and romance, because they sacrifice their life and stay red even after they die. And when a rose is dying, that’s the happiest moment for a human being.

That’s the way we human appreciate sacrifice- happy!

"Maybe you have been with me for too long, so you think everybody is nice."

"Yes, that’s definately the main reason."

But that’s the philosophy of one’s life, I have been through the hardship of keeping secret, telling lies, keeping an eye on somebody…to sum it up, not to trust someone easily. It was easy to do so when you were little I think. I still remember vividly, hiding in my bedroom with my sister and ate the junk food we bought secretly!

Yes, I do remember every single lies I told, every single secret I kept from others, and every single people I was asked to watch out. It is difficult; and I am tired of all that. I thought we could simply bury these unwanted memories easily somewhere in our heart, but as I said before, the more you try to forget, the more you will remember it.

The warehouse in my office got me thinking this time, we have many stocks to clean up every year. The only way of keeping our warehouse empty is only make enough amount for each client, without holding any stock on hand. That’s definately unrealistic and impossible; it might even harm the business.

Same thing of being a human I think, in term of taking care these unwanted memories, people. It might harm your health if your life lack of lies, secrets, and not trusting some people. I believe the only way to improve and make our system work smoothly without holding too many "stock" is building trust again with each other. Because you don’t just bury memories, you stock them up. You don’t just bury your sin of telling lies, you will remember it as a punishment.

I tried to get my life together these days and realize all those unpleasant moments in my life have been a punishment that push me for a change. I will start doing it now, eventhough I am in the worst environment to trust people around me and not telling lies at this moment, but I believe something will pay off eventually. At least, I don’t need to stock up any new secret, this is more controllable than the rest.

Trust? Absolutely priceless!

I was gone last weekend for a business trip, got off plan in Shang Hai and start the first business trip of my life…which was definately not a sighseeing trip *sob*

This was my first time in Wu Xi and Shang Hai. After getting off from Shang Hai Hong Qiao Airport, I have no feeling that I am in anywhere different. Because of the think fog, I totally felt like being in San Francisco again; I bet the tempreture at that moment was about the same as every other SF night- the familiar wind speed. It was such an interesting moment.

A short stop over at Jin De Zhen (景德镇) and a; the way along my journey, I was wondering about the darkness of this land. Maybe because most people in China have suffered a lot i the past, they are very much up to saving water, electricity, yes, especially electricity. No matter where I go, almost all the shop and houses turn off their light around 11pm. Sometimes even the street light will be off by then.

On the way to my new office in the future, the freeway was dark as hell. You can’t even see houses along the highway if you don’t pay attention. Therefore I slept through all the way.

To be honest, I have better feeling towards Wu Xi and Shanghai than ShenZhen. It is clean and the drivers are not as crazy, the pace is slower and the weather is COLD! Wu Xi is close to Tai Hu (太湖) a huge lake like Lake Michigan, and one of the king from Sui (隋朝) empire build a cannel (京华大运河)which run through Wu Xi . This city definately has more history than ShenZhen and it is a place where artist born since long ago.

So far everything is better than SZ and I won’t mind work at this place in near future. The environment, the people, the security, the building, the traffict, the four seasons weather sounds good to me!

But no heater in winter? I am not sure about it yet.

It has been a tiring week.

To be honest, it is so hard for me to be a morning person. It is just ****ing hard to wake up this early everyday!! How long does it takes for me get rid of this ultimate habbit? Geez, can’t believe that I am so fed up about this.

I was playing guitar hero this early morning around 2am while waiting to call the most important client. While playing Texas Flood by Stevie Ray Vaughan, it really got me into deep thinking.

I started to realize the problem of having your coworkers as your friends, as well as the advantage. The problem is, I HAVE TO work anytime anywhere because my friends aka my coworkers can find my anytime anywhere. The advantage is I CAN work anytime anywhere because my coworkers are around me anytime anywhere.

It really depends on how I take it when something come up, it can be positive or negative. To prove that I graduated with a psych degree, I think I will think it positively

So rock on Texas Flood, and rock on my morning yawning life.

It is interesting compare my working life in US and China. Yes, the extreme of Western and Eastern, and never forget, the absolute capitalist and the new communist.

You have no idea how much fun I have at work even though I have to work overtime almost everyday this week and work 6 days a week. I have to admit that my mind has been westernized a little after spending 4 years ++ in US during the most important period that shape you way of thinking, these experiences make my life even more interesting at present after all these years, spending time in different countries.

China is a developing country which is at the age of 16-20 for a human I think. Full of energy, excitement, confuse, temptation and etc. Personally, I find the confuse personality of this country particularly interesting. I think this is a problem in term of shaping one’s logic thinking and common sense; but it balances the old way of thinking with the new flow of information without causing any stress to the Chinese going through this transtion.

I totally experiencing this myself; being assign to one of the worst project right now and dealing with the most troublesome client, I found myself absolutely stress free. In communism, life is work, work is life. For what I learn in most of my life span, work should seprate from your life. Surprisingly, this two different attitude at work make me super effective at work, but super relax after I am off. My mind is developing a new coping skill which for me is so powerful that I have enough rest, enough fun, and a long working hours in a day.

Anyway, just find this kind of interesting…hehe.