This & That with Myself

I have no idea why do people write blog. How on earth I know? So stop asking me and change your question to "Why do YOU write blog?"

After you start working for a while you will realize common senses are priceless. And people stop researching to find their answer but ask somebody to assume that is the fact. The world is so overly communicated people forgot about the important of common sense. So it is common sense NOT to take one person opinion as the majority’s opinion.

Anyway,  I write blog because I have been doing it since 2002, from live journal, to newstand, then blogging started to get popular and easier to use, so I switched. But seriously, I never reveal much of my personal life, because what I like about a public journal is you will need to write it in a way that only you know what you are really talking about, it is exactly like an abstract painting, the real meaning is underneath or maybe twisted, and only I know it. For me, writing blog is art; it heals my mind and makes my mind more organize.

I think blogging prove once again SAYING just not enough, writing (or typing) in black and white is the more and forever efficient way to plan, think, solve, and remember.

I do not intend to write my blog and have everybody to read it or comments about it, of course I would love my friends know the updated news about me and I would always love to share. Most important of all, I write it for myself; I read it again and again and I see a different me between the lines.

So just in case you think I write blog for money or run for president, this is my explaination.

这部电影显然只是一部《红磨坊》的中文版，我看着看着老是很压抑，为什么中文电影拍不出那种华丽宫廷式的感觉。总觉得这是西方人的东西，不管我们怎么拍都拍不出感觉。怎么做维多利亚式宫廷音乐就是做的不相，中文歌德摇滚更是难以入耳。那么牵强的事还是搞得有声有色的，真奇怪。

过年的时候和我姐去wedding shopping，现在连婚纱照都有宫廷式的，感觉很怪。我自己虽然很早就对宫廷和歌德式的文化很喜欢，可是我自己不会去做那样的打扮，总觉得四不像。

可能是我该去发掘新东西的时候了，我喜欢vintage, victorian and gothic style 也够久的了，趁着现在泛滥之际早点找个理由改变吧！

我还是把《如果。爱》看完了，因为金成武还是很帅，他的演技也还是没有进步。

I was always really happy on my birthday. I think I borned at the right time seriously, after Valentine’s, after CNY, while people are still in the "vaca" mood with full pocket of cash

This year is different, early morning, I received the greatest disappointment. I told myself, maybe this is the last time, maybe this should be the last time and it should be the last time.

When I think of I am actually 25, and I am not because I can’t even make a simple decision which is pissing myself off. When I think of I am actually 25, and yes I am because I can still smile and work efficiently, I can even talk to you, him, her, them like nothing happen.

So when you are 25, maybe you will be like me, when something hurts you so badly, you just deal with it like a mosquito bite.

My first time home for CNY after 5 years!! So happy!!! I hope all my friends and my family will have a fantastic "oui oui" year!!

Eat well, sleep well, good health!

May the best luck always be with you!

Gong xi Gong xi!

Yes, I am back to SZ and will be back to Malaysia! Gonna gain my freedom and privacy back for 2 weeks!! So happy!!

Life is beautiful when you can finally be…ALONE!

This is not going to be a pleasant entry. There’s this fishy smell in my bedroom and it drives me insane! It affects my sleep every night and I don’t know what do to with it.

Like living in a fish bowl, I can’t get my eyes shut! The only different from a fish in the fish bowl and me in the fish bowl is, I hate that fishy smell (no offense to all the lovely fish).

I definately have to buy a new bed the next time I come back and gosh, I finally can have my own room!! What a good excuse It is funny to think about last time I wouldn’t mind to share room with anybody just to save a couple more bucks, but now I really can’t stand the idea of sharing room. Are human getting more solitory the older they get?

The very first step of getting my little privacy space back.

Again, I am sort of shopping and working at the same time this weekend! Did some research around town and visited many flea markets here. I got a super good deal on a 5 pieces dinette set! Very happy indeed cause I finally have the second furniture for my lovely apartment.

My life is getting a lot better,I have to say after I try so hard to persude myself towards acceptance. As a reward for my "hardwork" in adjustment and celebrate getting our new dining table, I made myself and my coworker a big dinner today!

A lot of stuffs need to work on, with my work and my new life. I really shouldn’t waste so much time playing the blaming game with Miss LA. As the Russian says "It never get too cold, it is just because you didn’t wear enough!" I wouldn’t mind to make another U turn ( I had already made tons of U turn since I got my car), as long as it brings me to my destination! I will stop feeling my heartache by looking at the milleage meter in my car keep going up!

Who knows, LA might make me like New York City more, so eventually, there’s no where on earth I actually hate. Ha, look at the bright side and big big wave to NYC!

So, I think I am still adjusting to my new life style in this new City. Stop being too judgamental abot Miss LA, as I took my friend’s advice. I decided to get to know the city more on my next trip here.

Life is difficult without much privacy around you, again, feel like I am working all the time all day is super tiring because I stay with my boss, I work with my boss, I eat with my boss. It sounds like good the company pay for everything even your shampoo, but it is sickening without your own space for so long!

I am hoping the work load will be even greater soon, so I will stop worrying about things like…privacy.