I usually don’t achieve much when I am alone at home.
I will be as lazy as I can when I am alone.
Today, I am alone as usual, but I think I gotta change this kind of attitude. I should spend my lonely time to do something meaningful and fun.
I don’t know since when I stop doing activities by myself. I guess I was having such a wonderful time in SF that totally changed me into a "hyper social being" , or maybe I am always a social being until this point of my life?
Everyday is a potential day to be alone for me now,
I drive,
I live,
I work,
I eat,
I shop.
I jog,
I drink,
I travel,
Alone.
Somehow I am still not looking forward to my weekend, eventhough I can do everything on the list above together with someone. And I am so afraid of my boss visiting next week. I am not looking forward to see people anymore.
Then I start thinking maybe I should work with animals…
Anyway, it is just another side of me being revealed- feeling more alive while I am alone, thinking, do a lot of thinking and do nothing about it.
So the other side of myself and I finally understand…
I am such a lazy a**hole who like to waste time.
So should the other side of me take over this side of me?
Nah, just leave it that way.