This & That with Myself

I love to dream and I dare to dream.

But I am afraid to conquer them.

I wonder when did I learn to be afraid?

I have so many dreams, some are big, some are little, some doesn’t even matter but still, is a dream so I give my full respect to it.

A little kid told my friend his dream to be a doctor, he nodded with faith that he will be in Harvard Medical School when he grew up. Today, I look at myself, why I lost my faith to even admit that I have these dreams?

I feel a shame that a big part of my life is wasted in something I feel is totally meaningless recently. If I can cut it out of my life, I believe, all my dreams are given enough time and resources to be achieved.

Does it really matter? That part of my life? Should I let go slowly or instantly?

Am I afraid?

The weather will continously cloudy in LA for the next couple of days. Good thing is, we are expecting a lot of snow on Mammoth, which will make my ski trip even more awesome!

After I found myself totally addicted to this very expensive sport, good thing and good mood keep hitting me on a regular basis. So it is all good and 100 bucks a weekend seems relatively cheap compare to what I get out of it.

A healthy mind set and a loosen heart.

For your information, an inexpensive private session with a psychologist cost you about USD 90 per hour. So USD 100 for skiing and a better mental health is really a bargain!

For me, skiing for a day and a good night sleep under the comfy sheets, waiting for the Monday blue hits me slowly is the best weekend I can ever ask for in winter time!

That’s all I want, I have mastered in asking as little as possible but enjoy the best out of it, I just want the comfy sheets!

You hear me? The comfy sheets!

I was trapped in snow for 3 hrs last night on I-15 freeway by myself. Man, all I can think of is Stephen King’s story…in the middle of nowhere, and the white sparkling snow cover everywhere around you.

Driving back and forth from Vegas last night was one of the greatest driving experience I ever have. I made so many wrong decisions about where to go, but whatever decisions that lead me to nowhere or dead end, at the end, it still lead me home. Yes of course it lead me home because there’s literally no other way to go besides waiting the freeway clear up and reopen for us.

Eveyrbody found it quite amazing that this was happening last night. People were smiling and started making snow man besides the freeway, singing, drinking beer and etc. I never feel the least lonely by myself last night; besides these interesting scence and of course, great company from my awesome friends!

I want to thank my twin, James Turner, my buddy eric, the person that I called 12 times for directions, amanda, emmie, my family, the VIP and last but not least, my ski jacket, my hiking shoes and my awesome Camry for spending time with me and being so useful so it made my trip totally awesome afterall despite the fact that I am damn sick now!!

I love you guys!

The unpredictable condition of tonight weather might spoil countless of wishes and dreams.

Tonight, I know exactly what I am aiming for when I see the first shooting star, I keep repeating my wish again and again, is like this is gonna be the last wish that I can ever ask for.

But now, sitting here, with the smell of my dinner, left over dishes on the table with my lonely laptop, and some thoughts in my head that start filling up my mind, so uncontrollable, so explosive.

I know, today my dream die for the very first time in 2008, my dream die again, but tomorrow, I will stand strong to live on.

Just like every other ordinary day.

Screw you 2007, I am so moving on!