Brainstorming
A few things I want to write about and remember.
Sex and The City: The Movie. "Will I laugh again?" "Yes you will, when something really really really funny happen."
Whenever I was in deep shit, I feel exactly the same, I just don’t know if I will ever laugh again. Again and again, the really really really funny something always happen, my friends, my beloved friends will always make it happens and then, I laugh from my heart and I am cured.
I love my friends, I really do. I love to make friends, new friends, old friends. There’s no intention behind, is just pure friendship. So pure that you don’t really need a lot of maintainance, just leave it there, it won’t be rotten for years and years.
A lot of self-discovery when I standing in front of the Great Salt Lake, the water is so still that it really scares you. And you look down, you see who you are. Your reflection told you the great story about you and yourself, then you look back, there’s the mountain, there’s how far your vision is, it is blocked by obstacle.
We have very limited vision, we can never see it all, there’s always something on our way. I try to look very far, I try to plan very far, but my history is pulling me back, once in a while haunt me, stop me, and make me say things I don’t mean to say.
Then you think about, if experience really do you any good? What if everyone of us have no history, we live everyday a brand new day, will we repeat what we do or we will do something new everyday?
My Salt Lake City trip
Salt Lake City is different.
It doesn’t look like any other part of the USA at all.
Sometimes you see a handsome guy smiling at you with a baby in his arm and both hands are holding two kids.
Most of the times, you don’t see people.
The road is big and a lot of one way street. Too many traffict lights but I like how black color blended very well into the city. The road signs, the traffit light post, the bench on the street: all in black.
Here you see the richest homeless in the country, with new pairs of sport shoes and fancy clean clothes.
The Mormon empire took out a lot of space in downtown, and you will find that one or two persons that can speak malay or swedish to you.
Is very empty, I drove miles and miles to find an antelope on antelope island. Then I saw a group of wild bison, eating quietly like nobody business.
I didn’t know, one of the man made objet that can be seen from the space is right here, the copper mines.
I didn’t expect the dog that bite me so hard last time was sleeping quietly with me.
This trip is exactly what I needed.
Then I found out, the betrayal still bothers me, when it comes true after 10 years, is none of my business anymore, but it bothers me a lot.
But I guess, it is a good thing, because now everything doesn’t look as bad as this one.
Life is good again.
