Back to China
The differences:
I have meeting a few times a week in LA, spent 80% of the time by myself, my phone rang only a few times a day, spent 30 % of my time in the car, thinking, think a lot.
I have 10 times more meetings to attend in China, meaning 10 times more human contacts, 10 times more conversation, 10 times more chances to argue. I only spent 1% of my time, thinking, 91% of my time, working and sleeping together.
1% of thinking time a day, I think about just a few things, ski or snowboard, going home, and a single event that is happening in my life at the moment.
My mind hasn’t been clearer for the longest time, but is funny that I feel like I don’t know myself very well again. I wonder if the environment really matter? Or the people?
Having some difficulty going through or moving forward lately is completely normal, I know. It is scary if at this point of my life I am still happy go lucky, what will I do when something happen when I am 40 years old?
I would rather go through them now…it is scary, I start thinking about what to do when I am 40 years old.
Maybe environment does matter, China make me see that far, but in LA, I can’t even live through yesterday.
