This & That with Myself

For a new chapter but the same old place.

After almost 2 months in China, also went to Shanghai for the first time (but still didn’t get to look around at all), went back home, went to Indonesia for the first time. I am thinking if I am ready to go back to the Angel city…

I am ready for the winter so I assume I am ready to go back to LA again.

Finally I have motivation to push myself to work on my working visa for the states, check my return ticket, pick up all the undone work in my US office, deal with the single event that was happening and is still happening at this moment, waiting for everything fade away slowly, day by day, little by little, eventually, I will have the strength to start a new chapter in my life again.

Life isn’t easy anymore, I remember, I always feel refresh and ready to start new whenever I cut my hair short, but now, things are getting more complicated, I have less and less time to spend with myself, my friends, and my love one. Feel like life is dragging me and I am dragging my life. Yes and No become so hard to say, there’s always reasons, there’s always excuses.

I took a brave step to think further and look further in this life, maybe it isn’t complicated at all, I just have to treat myself better and stop being an idiot or a toy of others. I have to gain control over myself, I have to be happy again, I have to laugh like that night in Jakarta, stuck in the traffic, singing, and laugh until I burst into tears.

Because life is still very funny, you just need a right moment. But if you close the door, the right moment will never hit you.

So I think I am ready. I miss my car.